Many people think that when they have kids young they have to give up on everything they’ve ever wanted. I’m sure many even look at me and see someone who has had forget my dreams or that somewhere I failed because I don’t have a career or I haven’t pursued everything I originally wanted. I have to admit that in times of weakness I feel the same way about myself. Where did I go wrong? Why can’t I do it all? I am supposed to be singing on stages in front of hundreds (lets be realistic haha) of people! Why do I have to give all that up?? If I could only go back I would do X, Y and Z.
Realistically, it IS possible for me to do it all, but at what expense? Would I miss my daughters first steps because I’ve got 3 more hours left of my shift? Will my son miss me doing homework with him because I have a night class that I can’t miss? Or will I be present with my children in the stages they are in? I can have my career, my family, my husband, my house. But what aspect of my life gets less of me than it deserves? Where will I drop the ball? Its inevitable because there are so many things to juggle and I only have two hands.
Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, “For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.” There is a time for everything. For me that means there is a time to be a mom and a time for me to have a career. This is my season right now…. mom. And what an amazing and fulfilling season it is. I wake up and spend my days shaping them, teaching them, learning from them and caring for them. Eventually there will come a time when they don’t need me any more. When that time comes my season will change. I will pursue my dreams, I will take more time for myself and my career. But until then I will embrace the season that I am in, knowing that my dreams are not forgotten, just postponed.